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I don’t understand

I don’t understand.

I spent today with several lifelong friends as we celebrated the life of a classmate. This week has been emotionally draining.

I don’t understand how in the blink of an eye he was gone. So many emotions flee through me and I don’t understand. I never expected this. I took for granted the days that he was here. If only I had one more day, I would not take it for granted.
I don’t understand how life can be complicated and simple at the same time.

I had known Jason since sixth grade and different stages of life we had seen each other more than others. Over the last few years, we communicated more and saw each other more often. He told us two weeks ago, he had cancerous tumor, he was having surgery, and he would be fine. He played it off as the worst part was missing a Randy Rogers concert.

Jason went in for surgery on January 27, 2014 and things did not go well. He was resuscitated, spent many hours on the operating table, and passed away the next day. He left behind there children and hundreds of friends. He touched so many lives and was an amazing man, father, and friend.

Several of his lifelong friends meet at the church for the funeral and lunch afterwards. We were all happy to see each other, but not in these circumstances.

We do not know what tomorrow brings. It is important to tell the ones who are special that you love them and live life to the fullest.


The Pieces of My Shattered Heart- Guest Blogger

The pieces of my shattered heart are lying in the sun.

Warming to the hopeful chance of finding love again.





Knowing there’s an arrow poised to pierce this heart of mine.

Bursting with a renewed purpose, splendid and divine.




My baby turns 14 today!

My baby turns 14 today!My baby turns 14 today!

My baby turns 14 today and it has not been your typical birthday celebration kind of day. Austin is my youngest son and he turned 14.  He is an incredible, young man and excels in school and on the football field. He was born with a hole in his lung which made his first few weeks of life difficult.  He is alive and well and doing great.  I have had the opportunity to teach in the middle school where he attends and realize that he will be leaving in about 17 weeks to attend high school which makes me sad.  I am blessed to have time with him each day driving him to and from school and to have been at school for him when he needed me.  He will tell you that he is happy about going to a school where I am not there.

The day started as a normal day as we prepared for school and started on our way (I did make cupcakes and our dog spared three of them from his breakfast counter surfing) until I was called into the hallway by the assistant principal.  My baby boy who rarely got in trouble was under the radar for the assistant principal, but it was more of a concern about some of the other boys sitting at his lunch table.  Thank God… it was a close call. I continue on with UIL activities to get a call from the high school principal about my oldest son. The high school principal and I have a relationship since he has had to call me a few times.   Yes, my oldest has been the source of several of the sparkles in my hair.  Needless to say, he keeps my life interesting and he has entrepreneur skills.  The high school principal explains to me that Garrett has been making fake parking passes and selling him. He continues to tell me that they are the best he has ever seen and that he did a good job.  He will have to return the student’s money and attend Saturday school.  My oldest excels in computer graphics and sales.  I can honestly say, I have never  Oh wow… it is only 4 pm.

We are home for a couple of hours and we all took a nap; it had already been an exhausting Monday. My baby turns 14 and we are spending the evening preparing him for high school at  a meeting  to prepare for his courses for the upcoming year.  He had to opportunity to look at the different options and meet the head football coach. The school he will attend has won back to back state championships for football and my son is excited about the football program. We braved the cold, ran to the car, and headed to Chili’s for dinner… his fave.

Upon arriving at home and preparing for bed, I learn that a lifelong friend had complications from surgery, had been resuscitated, and was not doing well.  I did not sleep well and was concerned all night.  I reflected on life, counted my blessings, and reminisced about our times together while chatting with other lifelong friends.  I realized life is a gift and the small things like calls from principals don’t really matter in the big picture.  Remember to tell those who are close to you that you love them, embrace the moments you have together and always have a heart of gratitude.

Life on the Run

Life on the Run

While running an eleven mile training run, I was able to reflect on life and running.  I realized that running is similar to life and life is similar to running. The scenery was beautiful with hills, open pastures, and cattle. The temperature was in the thirties with a strong breeze. We shared the road with motorist, motorcyclist and bicyclist.
Life strategies and running skills are similar.

1. Goals

Goals provide you with a vision without a vision the people will perish!

2. Surround yourself with champions
The journey is much better when sharing with others with same goals and drive to succeed. It is nice to have motivation and support from like minded people.  It is also nice to support and motivate others along the journey.

3. Enjoy the journey
Finding joy in all you do makes the journey much more enjoyable. My motto: “Live life for joy in the journey.”

4. Embrace the pain
Life is full of painful experiences that makes us stronger. Running can be painful too. We become stronger from the pain.  I have seen signs while running races that say, “Pain is weakness leaving the body” and I truly believe it.

5. Remember timing is in God’s hands

Things do not always happen in the time we want them to, but it always works in God’s timing. We cannot rush time or slow it down; we can only make the best of it.  I have stopped wishing my life away.  I enjoy Mondays as much as I do Fridays.  Each moment is a gift and I am grateful for each moment.  While running, sometimes your time is slow and sometimes it is fast.  Learning to accept it for what it is or deciding to make it better for the next long run through proper training techniques.

6. Don’t quit! Quitting is not an option! Sometimes, we have to change the plan or route, but never quit!

7. Believe in yourself!

What we think about we bring about! Believe in yourself and you can accomplish the goal and enjoy the journey of life!

Life on the run